F for fail

Today was such a bad day. I got back the rest of my Maths Ext 1 and English exams which were both really bad. Not just bad according to my high expectations but literally bad *sigh*. I already knew I wasn't going to do that great in English considering that I hate it but wow, I got so much worse than expected. Looking back at my English results for the past year, I'm surprised that I was actually doing pretty well. Clearly trials have revealed how much I really suck and that it was all a fluke. Goodbye rank )';

A little over six more weeks until the HSC ! The older you get, the quicker time seems to pass by. I'm rather scared. Despite people saying that uni exams are like doing the HSC every six months, I still can't wait until it's all over.

Bleh, so not motivated right now (not that I ever was). I think the problem with me isn't that I'm not capable, but that I'm so damn lazy. I should be crowned procrastination queen.

USYD

How depressing, I woke up earlier today than I usually do for school to go to the UTS and USYD open days and I came this close to missing my bus. Conclusion made is that I can't run in shoes with heels. We didn't stay very long at UTS and I didn't really have any lectures I wanted to attend but I accompanied my friends in the Management and International Studies ones. Unexpectedly I'm actually kind of interested in International Studies after listening to the lecture. We then caught the shuttle bus to USYD, went on the campus tour, treked around a bit in the stands, attended the Economics lecture and the Commerce lecture, which was so full by the time we got there (the theatre was on the other side of the campus from where the Economics lecture was and it started straight after) that we had to stand and suffocate because it was so hot and stuffy in there with so many people. Me feet were so tired. I don't even know why I didn't wear flat shoes when I know I'd be walking a lot. I'm so illogical sometimes.

Unfortunately the weather wasn't very nice today. It was super foggy when I woke up and so cloudy that there wasn't even a patch of blue. The sun didn't come out to play until around 3pm.

Doesn't the sky look sad and depressing?

Jess, you need to smileee more! By the way I'm not wearing garter belts haha they're heart suspender stockings. I got them a while ago from ASOS because I think they're so cute but I've never worn them because I'm kind of scared about looking like a tart. I guess it really depends what you wear with them. The bad thing about them is that the part at the top is super thin and if you pull them with long or sharp nails, you'll probably tear it like I did. There's already a small tear near the top which will probably just get bigger ); I've only worn them once too!

Up, up and away: I had things in my both my hands so I couldn't take it in time ):

Boo

Sorry about not posting, I pretty much have nothing interesting to share about this whole week. I got back my Japanese and Legal Studies marks and once again, I'm pretty neutral about what I got. My Japanese mark is probably considered pretty good but I'm not sure if it's good enough to gain my rank back. Even though I said I'll be sleeping earlier from now on, it seems like I'm sleeping later than before (don't see how that works) and I keep waking up later and later in the morning. I was late two days in a row this week haha, whoops. Detention for meee.

I was looking through my files to look for photos to add in the yearbook and I realised how little photos I've taken at school over the years. It made me so sad and regretful. I can't believe we're graduating in about 4 weeks! Oh and talking about graduation, I'm so scared and paranoid about getting egged by idiots on the way to school (guys egg our school pretty much every year close to graduation time). I have no-one to walk with either because I'm usually rather late )'; Grr, I blame stupid Sydney buses for cancelling the bus I use to catch in the mornings.

Anyway, USYD (University of Sydney for my overseas readers, if I have any) open day tomorrow! Going to be so tired when I get home. Also going to drop by UTS (University of Technology Sydney) before going there. I find it so stupid how the open days are on the same day *facepalm*.

I absolutely love the recipes from Diamonds for Desert - my favourite food blog. They're so cute and artistic! Going to try making her icebox cookies recipe again when I have time. Kind of failed at making the shape the first time haha.

Classes again

Hm, haven't been up to much. What did I do on the weekend? *kind of forgot already*. Oh, I pretty much did nothing on Saturday and went to Burwood for a haircut on Sunday. There were these shorts I wanted from Forever New that I've been meaning to buy for a while but the Burwood store didn't have them in stock any more and only a few stores still have them in size 6. So after school today (we finish early), I went to Bankstown just to buy them. Thank you to my friends Jess and Kristy for accompanying me hehe.

Other than that, we got news about how we all failed our Legal Studies essays in the trials, though we didn't get them back yet because they aren't all marked, and I got back my Economics trial. I'm pretty neutral with my mark. I would've liked to get better but I seem to have come to the conclusion that I'm not that great at writing Economics essays and that they always drag my mark down, unfortunately. I don't think I'm very good at utilising the knowledge in my mind in a comprehensive and sustained manner. *Sigh*, must redo my essays and hand them in. I wonder if I'll get back any tomorrow, though probably not Maths. Maybe English paper 1 and Japanese?

I feel like I've gone back to school after a semi holiday (5 days).

CubaGallery

Just sharing some photography by CubaGallery on Flickr. Looking at amazing photos always cheers me up.

Stella the sloth

I feel like I've been a complete and utter sloth for the past three days. I've literally done nothing besides treking to tutor to make up for not being able to go during trials and watching dramas (One more ep of Heartstrings to go. Waiting for subs). The weather was so horrible today and my clothes were all wet by the time I got to tutor, even though I had a large umbrella. It was so cold I was shivering. Ahh, I hate this weather! It'll also probably be impossible to go to the park on Sunday at this rate. I hate rain, it always kills everything. It better not be raining on the USYD open day!

I asked my tutor yesterday about whether I should drop ext maths or not and he thinks I should keep it because I've wasted so much time on it already. He said other than wasting time thinking about dropping it or not, I should just work on improving instead. I'm still undecided but I guess I'll keep it. I'm just going to be so depressed and ashamed if it doesn't end up getting counted towards my ATAR because I would've wasted so much money on tutor. *Prays that it's counted*

Oh, I think I'll end up going to the KPOP fest in November because I probably won't get the chance to see so many groups ever again since no one ever comes to stupid Australia. Not sure how much I'm willing to spend on tickets though, hm. I just checked and the seating plan was announced + tickets go on sale at 9am on September 1st (Pre-sale from 9am August 28th - 5pm August 30th) from Ticketek for anyone who was wondering.

Hehe Henry speaking Cantonese

"Hello friends from Hong Kong, I'm Henry. Long time no see.

I want to go back to Hong Kong to see you guys. My Cantonese is really bad, sorry."

Misunderstood

I'm thinking that I probably should've dropped Ext Maths ages ago. I mean, there's no point in me doing it if I have 11 units and I'm only doing average in that extra unit. At the same time, I feel like it's such a waste for me to drop it now because there are only 8 weeks left before the HSC. What should I do?

I read something on Soompi just then that really got me thinking. Someone said "People often mistake shyness for coldness and silence for indifference." I'm not sure if I'm perceiving things wrongly but I get this feeling that people often think that about me. I'm not the type to instantly become good friends with new people I meet and thus I'm more on the quiet side in the beginning, but if you know me well, I actually talk a lot. I remember that one of my friends now (I think we only became friends some time last year) said to me that before we became friends she thought that I was a very quiet person. Hm, I have no idea why I'm blogging about this but I just felt like talking about it. In the end I'm probably just trying to say that if you think I'm a quiet person, then you just don't know me well enough. And whilst I'm at it, if you think I don't sing at karaoke, you are so mistaken haha.

Moving on, I was hoping to play some piano today because I thought I'd be home alone, but apparently not. Have I ever mentioned that I don't like playing when my family members are home? I think it's because I feel like I'm disturbing everyone, especially if I keep making mistakes. I really wish I had a sound-proof room because that way I'd even be able to play in the middle of the night if I really wanted to.

It's over, for now.

TRIALS ARE OVER !

But I don't feel happy at all because I'm going to get so bad for ext maths and I'm feeling a little disheartened again. I'm starting to think that maybe I should drop it after all. There are still many people doing worse than me but I think my rank dropped after this exam *sigh*. And it makes me so stressed that I think I should just drop it for the sake of being less stressed. I want to decide after I find out what rank I am now but apparently the school isn't allowed to tell us our final ranks, which sucks!

Anyway, yesterday was my brother's graduation. It was actually the first time I've ever properly been to UNSW as I've yet to go to an open day (will be going this year of course). Too bad it's Winter though, because it gets dark super early. The ceremony itself was pretty boring, though I found it pretty interesting how there are so many females studying law. I got annoyed at my camera since the zoom sucks and the flash couldn't reach far enough. I started complaining to my dad that it sucks because he kept telling me to take photos and then later he said that he'd buy me a new camera. Let's see if he actually does end up buying me one.

And then I came home smelling like the Korean BBQ we had for dinner and flopped into bed after showering. Oh, my Japanese exam was also yesterday and I think I should get pretty good, although probably not good enough for my expectations since there are other people that are getting quite good now. It makes me sad );

Hoping to do something fun this weekend but apparently the weather won't be nice. I find it rather depressing that there's nothing fun to do in Sydney. It's such a hole here.

I didn't realise how pale I am and now I feel super pale. Am I too pale?

Gee we are so awkward when it comes to taking photos. Haven't taken a family photo in years.

Dramas are evil

Can't stop watching Heartstrings when I'm meant to be studying OTL

Disappointment

A little sad because I'm definitely not going to get full marks for my speaking exam *sigh*. The examiner I got asked me weird questions like "What do you think about your school's rules?" and "What's easy about Japanese?". I mean, even if someone asked me that in English I wouldn't know what to say )'; Well I ended up replying with something of course, but my response was delayed because I had to think about it and then afterwards I realised that I accidentally said the wrong word for something. Yeah, I'm pretty angry about it but I guess I can't do anything about it now. I really hate how I can't know how I went though, and it's probably going to keep bugging me for a while. I think I saw a girl I know from primary school there but she didn't see or recognise me haha. I was going to call out to her but she walked away so I gave up.

Bleh, I really need to study for Maths Ext or I'm going to get slaughtered.

Paul & Joe's new Autumn collection - Manhattan (Images from Paul & Joe website)

命定

Yay, so glad English paper 2 is over! My speaking exam is tomorrow and then I have Japanese and Maths Ext left. I'm probably going to die in Maths Ext *sigh*. Can't wait until trials are over. I'll also be going to my brother's graduation ceremony on Monday. Haha he's finallyyyy graduating, though it's his second degree. I won't get to study at all on Monday night but oh well );

I've never really listened to Vanness Wu's songs but I think I quite like this song. Addicted now.

♫ 我知道我存在的意义。我知道我伟大的目的。

Almost halfway there

Three exams down, four to go! + speaking exam on Sat );

Three places that come to mind when I think of where I want to go (Hehe I seem to like historical sites)

Venice

Versailles

Neuschwanstein Castle, Germany

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Guess what?

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Seven to go

Eating comfort food (frozen yoghurt) with my friend after our English exam.

Hehe I think he needs a haircut. You can't even see his eyes properly D:

♫

Dahlia

Looks like I couldn't stay away from blogging.

I thought I'd share with you guys my current favourite online store; a small boutique in London called Dahlia that has the cutest dresses ever (or at least I think they're cute). Although the store is pretty small, I'm in love with their styles and designs. I think I'm going to end up owning half their pieces haha. Some of the dresses I really liked are no longer up on their site though. I was so happy to see that they ship internationally, although ASOS also stocks some of their pieces. Personally I do think it's a little pricey and I'm not really that willing to pay the full price so I've been waiting for them to go on sale on ASOS (Haha I sound stingy, don't I?). Actually, It's probably more so because I know It'll go on sale later and why pay more when you can pay less? I hate when I buy something and it ends up going on sale soon after.

I just bought two of their dresses that were discounted to half price *win*. Appreciation of the Australian dollar is also a win hehe. Although just to warn anyone who orders off their official site, the shipping was jaw-droppingly slow. For starters the shipping wasn't free (unlike ASOS which is also based in the UK) and yet it still took a whooping six weeks to get here. ASOS shipping is free and it takes under two weeks so I have no idea why on earth it took so long. Seems like it travelled all around the globe or something. Including the two I just bought, I'll own four of their dresses hehe.

The last three images are some older designs from before I even discovered the store. I can't find any larger images but from what I can see, I wish they were still in stock now *sad*.

Anyway, I should sleep. I've been surviving on six hours of sleep for the past who knows how long.