I finally bothered to clean my desk so now I'm in study mode! I really hate how my desk is white though, because you can see all the dust that it attracts. I'm not sure why, but it really feels like the end of the year lately (or maybe it's just because the HSC is looming in on us). Anyway, time to do some papers *sigh*. I can't wait until the 3rd of November when it'll be all over.
I apologise if I don't blog about anything interesting for the next who-knows-how-long. All I'll be doing is drowning in school work.
I was finally able to get some sleep last night, with the help of some relaxing music. I didn't even know that my phone had a countdown timer to sleep the ipod *clueless*. But even though I did manage to get some sleep, I felt even more tired today than yesterday. Anyway, I don't think I'll be blogging about much for the next few weeks. Trials are looming in on me, urgh. I feel completely and utterly screwed. I'm so not prepared for this! I swear I come home from school and next thing I know it's already night time );
I think I've suddenly become a Henry fan. Hehe he's cuteee. Is it just me, or does he look really Korean in this vid?
I wish he would sing the whole acoustic version. I'm so glad I can understand Mandarin (I'm Cantonese if you didn't know). Though I can't understand every single thing in Mandarin, of course. There are plenty of words that I don't know, unfortunately. It helps if it sounds similar to the word in Cantonese though :D
I'm so light-headed right now because I couldn't sleep at all last night. I feel like I had my eyes closed all night but I didn't actually fall asleep. I was still awake at 5:30 am *sigh*. I wish I could just drop dead on my bed and sleep but unfortunately, I still have heaps of work to do (mainly for tutor). My right arm and hand has been hurting since yesterday too, probably because I used a size 10 ball during bowling when I usually use a 7, or even a 6 D; I still need to present my English speech tomorrow and I really want to get it over and done with, but at the same time, I don't want to volunteer myself. Ahh, so many problems.
I went to the JTAN HSC Course Workshop at SHORE High School in North Sydney today. Only four people (including myself) in my class went and we got split up so I was the biggest loner ever. I also don't know anyone from other schools that does Beginners ); I wasn't planning on going at first but then I changed my mind because I decided that it would probably be really beneficial for my HSC speaking exam which is coming up very soon. The school was huge and there were these massive floor-to-ceiling windows in the library from which you could see the harbour. It must be nice to sit there and study on a sunny day *jealous*. I would've taken a photo but everyone was there so I probably would've looked like some weird person who hasn't seen the harbour before.
So basically I went around and had a conversation with three different teachers and did a listening exercise. The first teacher said that I should expand on my answers a little more, the second said I should talk a bit louder because it needs to be recorded in the HSC, and the last said there was nothing she could help me with haha. Overall they were very nice teachers and I'm really glad I went because I'm so much more confident now :D (and less scared about having a conversation in Japanese with a HSC examiner whom I don't know). Afterwards I went for two games of bowling at AMF in North Strathfield with my friend who was kind enough to catch the train to North Sydney with me. Hehe thank you (: I won both games mwahaha.
Hm, need to find a baby photo to put in our yearbook.
So I've returned to my normal self. Looking back at that depressing post, I sound like I'm crazy haha. I really hope I didn't scare away anyone :| Well hopefully it doesn't happen again any time soon. I'm also not sick any more, yay!
Gotta love Kyle Landry's improvisations. Someone really needs to buy him a piano though.
I think I'm so stressed that I've finally exploded.
I'm still sick and I couldn't sleep at all last night. I was awake all night thinking about how the HSC is in less than three months, how my HSC Japanese speaking exam is in three weeks, how the trials are in two weeks, how my English speech is due tomorrow and i don't even know if I've done it right. I'm scared that I won't get the ATAR I need to get into the course I want and every time I look at my ranks, I feel like I've disappointed myself so much. Ever since last night I keep bursting into tears and I feel like I have no-one to tell, so here I am blogging about it. I don't even know if I can present my speech tomorrow without bursting into tears and they'll probably send me off to the counsellor if I do. My parents and brother have so many expectations of me. It's just so hard not to break down.
I sometimes wonder what's the point of all this? We study hard in school and in the end we get a number. With that number we get into the course we want in university and then we study hard again to graduate. After university we search (maybe high and low) for a job to earn money. By the time we have enough money, we'll probably be old. So what's the point?
I'm pretty much losing my sanity right now. I mean, I've pretty much lost my sanity.
Have I gone completely crazy or does that look like a clown's face?
I reluctantly woke up this morning and got ready for school but then I decided not to go in case I faint on the way or something. My sore throat is gone but I have that awful dizzy feeling you get when you have a fever, though I'm pretty sure I don't have one. I feel so bad for skipping two days of school in a row but I think I'd rather recover now than be sick during my speech. The cold and rainy weather really isn't helping at all and I think I've kind of lost my sense of taste so I can't even enjoy my food.
I thought I'd be okay to go to school but apparently not. I slept so much today and I still feel super tired and weak. I feel kind of bad for skipping tutor today and as much as I'd love to skip school tomorrow too, it's probably not that great of an idea. I'm starting to think I jinxed myself by saying to my friend that I'm surprised I still haven't gotten sick yet (I catch colds quite easily). I really don't know what I'm going to do if I'm still sick on Friday. These Strepsils aren't helping my throat at all! I don't know why I feel so dead when I only have a sore throat )'; Scratch that, I'm starting to feel like I have a cold.
I can't believe I'll be sitting the HSC is three months. I'm so scared but at the same time, I can't wait until it's all over so I can burn my books. Just kidding, I won't really burn my books, but I'll be glad to not have to look at them ever again.
Argh, I really want to sleep right now but I'm still working on my English speech that's literally going nowhere.
I suddenly have a sore throat and I'm currently dying because I don't have any lozenges. I have a speech on Friday too. Perfect timing right? Anyway, I'm really not looking forward to school starting. I pretty much wasted my whole holidays by being unproductive *sigh*.
So today was SMASH and I was expecting to have a great time there but to be honest, I was pretty disappointed. Even though the venue was a lot bigger this year and there were probably a lot more people, I actually liked it better when it was more crowded and lively. Personally I thought that this year's cosplay weren't that great compared to last year's and I couldn't even find that many people to take photos of. I was already bored after a little while and I honestly wasn't really in a happy mood because of various reasons. For once we actually left before it ended and went to eat at Norita instead. I think I probably had more fun playing Scrabble than going to SMASH.
Anyway, Happy 26th Birthday to my dear brother. Although we aren't the closest of siblings (I sometimes wonder whether it's because we're 9 years apart) and argue from time to time, I'm still grateful to have a brother like him who cares about me and what I do with my life. He hasn't been very happy lately and it's been worrying me quite a bit, but I was glad to see him smile today.
Half my photos are blurry *facepalm*.
Hooray for looking the same in 4 photos. I'm so good at cloning myself aren't I? *sarcasm*. I really can't smile properly );
My first time building a gundam (It was free).
Eating ice cream at Norita
(Left) Hehe I bought a Welhelmina (From Shakugan no Shana) figurine because it was quite cheap. (Right) Finished gundam.
Just thought I'd share my favourite nail lacquer/polish/enamel (whatever you want to call it, although apparently there is a difference) colours. I have around 41 bottles (many of which I don't even use) but these are my favourites. Despite what you may think from my image, I actually don't really like using shades of pink. As you can see, I love shades of blue and mint green.
Left to right: Essie Mint Candy Apple, Essie Lapis of Luxury, Chanel Riva, Volt #30
Guess what? SMASH is tomorrow! And I have to wake up at around 6:30 *dies*. Coffee run anyone?
Went to watch HP and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 today with my friends. It was so awesome and definitely lived up to my expectations. I didn't think I would cry but I actually did, when Snape died and when Harry was looking through his memories in the pensieve. Not that his death came as a surprise though, because I've read the books. Hm, I wonder what the reaction of those who haven't would be. By the way, you suck if you haven't read the books ); We went for 3 hours of karaoke afterwards and that's about it. My voice was so croaky by the end, too many high songs. Oh, I also dropped by at Zara again before the movie but I couldn't find anything to buy even though they're having a sale at the moment. It seems like it's become sort of like a ritual for me to drop by at Zara every time I'm in the city, even though I seem to come out empty handed. I'm so weird sometimes.
Because I had a sudden craving for something cold, I'm now sitting here sipping iced coke hehe.
Outfit of the day. Sorry it's rather bad quality because it was dark (I was in a change room) but I didn't want to use flash. I feel so weird taking photos of myself. You can't see my shoes because they blend in with my stockings but they're black suede oxford heels. Oh and the colour is a little off, my dress is actually green not blue. ); Chiffon is so wrinkly.
Yesterday was rather horrible. I was so worried about my parcel (containing my yukata that I need for Saturday) because the tracking said "returned to facility", which I've never seen before and the word "returned" didn't exactly generate positive thoughts. I was suspicious that the seller had written my address wrong or something because their English isn't all that great. Since it was a Sunday the P.O was closed though maybe I should've tried calling anyway. I didn't think that much of it until the EMS tracking site (I was using the Aust Post one before) said "returned to sender". Then I started mentally panicking and wondering whether it was too late to call them the next day and intercept it. I couldn't even sleep last night because I kept thinking about my parcel being sent back to Japan and to make it worse, I came this close to dropping my contact down the sink which would've cost $200 to replace. After I finally somewhat dozed off to sleep, my phone vibrated because I got an email and woke me up at around 5 am. I can't decide whether it's a good thing or a bad thing that I'm a pretty light sleeper.
I woke up this morning and to my surprise, I read that my parcel was "on board with driver" *facepalm*. I have no idea why the tracking went psycho but it pretty much killed my day. My ASOS parcel also came today. Hehe I love getting parcels. Other than that, I had to go to school this morning for maths class because we're rather behind schedule in finishing the course and afterwards I went to watch Transformers (finally) with a friend. The movie was pretty good, though probably too long for my liking. I got a little sad when I thought Bumblebee was going to die *laughs*. For once the 3D didn't make my eyes too uncomfortable. Usually it kind of makes my eyes water which is why my friends and I booked non-3D for Harry Potter, but I'm completely and utterly regretting it now and we can't refund or exchange our tickets *sad*. Did you know that they have limited edition round 3D glasses for the movie? I want them! and now I can't have them, grr.
What I wore today (Since I said I would post my outfits and I keep forgetting):
Just a plain black coat because it's cold, nothing special. I should clean my mirror, it's so dusty.
I really should stop sleeping so late. I stayed up til almost 5am last night because I was watching live footage of the Harry Potter premiere in London. It was quite fun to watch hehe. I laughed when Michael Gambon (actor who plays Dumbledore) said "Oh god, look I'm on the telly." All the cast were so lovely. I was a little sad that Gary Oldman wasn't there though (unless I just didn't see him, but I don't think he was). Sirius Black is one of my favourite characters hehe. It really doesn't seem real that it's coming to an end *teary*. I really have the urge to read the books all over again and watch all the movies at once. It'll be nice to pull out the books once in a while and smile. Honestly, I can imagine myself reading the series over and over again until I'm an old granny. Thank you to JK Rowling for writing such a wonderful series that will forever remain apart of my childhood.
Half the holidays have come and gone already and I feel like I've hardly done anything. I really need to get a move on *sigh*. I'm really not looking forward to the first week of school as I have a speech due for Julius Caesar. Despite having done a number of speeches over the years, I'm still not that great with public speaking. Fingers crossed that I don't get one of the two teachers I don't want. But seeing as I usually have bad luck, I wouldn't be surprised if I do.
I was so dead tired today. I woke up early to go to tutor and found myself almost falling asleep on the semi-long train ride (Nts: don't stay up late the day before tutor). Not to mention I was blown around in the wind and froze to death whilst waiting for the train out in the cold. The wind was almost icy. After tutor I caught the train to Burwood but because my orthodontist appointment wasn't until 2:50, I had nothing to do for about an hour. I have to say that one hour feels so very long when you're alone. There was a cocktail ring I really liked at Forever New but unfortunately it was too big for me. I really don't understand why stores don't make smaller rings. Are my fingers really that slim? And even so, I'm sure there are plenty of people out there with slim fingers. Even though I have quite a few already, I unknowingly ended up buying two cardigans before leaving Westfield. I actually only wanted one colour but it was cheaper to buy two so I just picked out another one. I really should stop spending so much money. I feel like I've bought so much lately.
I'm usually not a fan of espadrilles but there's something I really like about these shoes. Too bad they aren't on sale and cost $162.69. They're almost out of stock in my size too *sad*. Is it just me or are the things I want never the things on sale?
